maui mama: I QUIT!!!!!

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

I QUIT!!!!!

That's it! I'm done. It's over.
No more pencils, no more books, no more teacher's dirty looks.
The Outline Format has kicked my butt. Thanks a lot, Aristotle.
I hate this. I'm a quitter. A loser. *sniff*
and on my LAST project.
But I just can't do it.
It's so absurd, to be on the phone, late at night, bawling my eyes out
while the instructor tells me everything thats wrong with my paper.
STUPID sub points, sub sub points, and sub sub sub points!
Writing a paper is EASY. All my life teachers have told me my papers were great. (I know you're thinking "she doesn't write that good, what's she talking about?" but I don't put any thought into my blog, I just write whatever comes out. I really can write, if I put my mind to it. Or used to be able to write, anyhow...)
But I can't get it into this format.
I can't, therefore I fail.
Example:
The way I submitted it:
Main Point 2: Heart attacks have specific causes.
(SubPoint 1) A few things can block the blood supply from getting to the heart.
(Sub Sub Point 1) Most blockages occur from fatty deposits.
(sub sub sub point 1) a. fatty deposits accumulate over time.
(sub sub sub point 2) b. (pic of clean and clogged artery)
(Next sub sub point described another type of blockage to support SP 1)

After discussion:
SSP 1 becomes SP 1 and is revised to say "Heart attacks can occur from fatty deposits in the artery."

YES. It makes sense. At the moment. But leave me alone to do the revision and I think my paper looks fine the way it is. ( I know this is not superior work, just passable, but it's not even THAT.)
Over the phone with the instructor it's a piece of CRAP and I don't know ANYTHING about writing this paper.

I HATE THIS!!!

How can I get my degree if I can't pass this class!!?? It's required! There's NO WAY I can revise it by tonight, when I need my hand held to go through each step.
It's not the content, I can spew out a zillion facts, but I can't put them into the correct place. Does it belong here? Or there? Or not at all? Which SUB- STUPID-SUB POINT DOES IT GO INTO?

THIS SUCKS.
I concede defeat.

Being an RN is enough, I don't have to go through any more. Plus, we can't afford the tuition and books ANYWAY. Yeah, just rationalize it all away.

I need a new blog name.
Don't want to be reminded of this class, the one that beat me.
The one that sent me spiraling down, down, down, to the bottom of the abyss of despair.
(lol)
The one I spent an entire semester and hours and hours
and LORD, the embarrassment of giving speeches
ALL FOR NOTHING.

I want my mommmmmyyyyyy and Daddddddddyyyyyy

waaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh!!

¶ 7:19 AM

Comments:

Awwww, Sandy, I'm sorry. :( Here's a big hug for you.

I don't have any advice -- except maybe to talk to your instructor and let him/her know how hard you're trying and your frustration. They're humans, too.

I dunno. (hug)

# posted by

Jammie J. : 10:03 AM

Sorry about your crappy day - think of something better. Like, oh say, the recipe contest. How are those kids liking the new recipes?

# posted by

Perri : 11:04 AM

You can do it. Just go for a quick surf, enjoy the salt water on your skin, refresh your mind and spirit, THEN sit down and try again.

Hugs,
Jody

# posted by

Jody : 1:33 PM

When something is giving me fits, I find it best to just leave it alone for a bit. I know time is limited, but sometimes all it takes is 5 minutes or so. Take a breather and when you come back to it, you may see it in an entirely different way.

# posted by

Kerri : 2:39 PM

I agree with everyone else. Take a break (chocolate is always good at a time like this) and then go back and tackle that paper like you wrote the declaration of independence! YOU CAN DO IT! We all have faith in you. Now go, write and do an awesome job! :)

# posted by

Jodi : 3:02 PM

Thank you, thank you, thank you.
You guys are so awesome.
{{{{{{GROUP HUG}}}}}}}

# posted by

Sandy : 1:00 AM

Thank you, thank you, thank you.
You guys are so awesome.
{{{{{{GROUP HUG}}}}}}}

# posted by

Sandy : 1:00 AM

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